Before we proceed with the laugh riot which is my travel escapades, you’re gonna want to know;

“Hey Marvy, what the mutha-fudging heck have you been doing since March?”

Well my PG-13 curse appropriate restricted imaginary friend, that’s a toughie to answer honestly.

I re-read the intro of my own blog for 400th time and this paragraph just stood out

“Well its official Brown Bear (aka me) will be jetting off to see the world and explore what life can throw at me and what I can hurl back as well!”

At the age of 36, I would have never thought I’d accomplish what I had and also let some scenarios & people ruin me in the way I thought it would. I’ve knowingly and unwittingly had symptoms of depression and anxiety, these have also led me to explore a dark route of addiction, low self esteem and confidence. I didn’t want to recognise it, acknowledge it or deny it, I always knew my moods and behaviour were counter-productive to my general character and outlook. Nothing made sense!

During 2018 I broke with YAK, as we both contributing to a toxic relationship (if you’re reading this dude, sorry but it’s true). I fell apart while staying strong, I went back to what I thought was me, the fun happy go lucky party boy who always laughed. Little did myself and others know the dark side of my persona was taking over. While dealing with a break up, I lost interest in working or giving myself a happy/ healthy lifestyle, while stressing my mind and body to the MAX. I suffered a mental breakdown & heart attack in May 2019.

I know, Yes I know.

From looking at the quote to the last 2 paragraphs I just wrote, it doesn’t make any emotional logic.

I suffered in silence by being loud

Miraculously I’m alive and more focused, content and bears repeating ALIVE more than ever, I’m looking after myself, having a more positive and honest prospective on my life and the people who I connect with. That would include you tremendous readers as well. I’m grateful you’ve been supportive and I will keep entertaining the masses…well the tiny masses that is this audience

So in retrospect, Brown Bear is still jetting off, exploring the physical world and emotional planes and fighting life like Lisa and Bart in that episode where they are in rival ice hockey teams.

With that all said and done, let’s delve into the actual blog

Thank you xx